The main focus of my PhD thesis is on the artistic examination of my personal experience of violence. Being born and raised in GDR I wanted to investigate effects of the political turnaround in my home country more profoundly. I have therefore chosen the time frame from 1986 to 2016 and 21 specific events related to different acts of violence as the subject matter. The research methodology that I have developed is hybrid, since it encompasses archival research, my own documentary and conceptual photography and experimental writing. Central themes are guilt, pointless violence, misleading role patterns, dysfunctional father-son relationship, placelessness and entanglements into historic and contemporary Nazism. I travelled to all 21 places to photograph each site on color and b/w medium format film and decided not to touch the negatives for a while. Later I reviewed the photographs and started to write about it in different textual forms (short stories, fictive dialogues, poetry, metareflexive journal). Then I transformed all the material into an experimental book. I consider it a means of communication and labour, that enables deeper understanding of severe social change. It is a polyvocal composition intended to be used as study material in teaching or as a template for artistic processing (e.g. screenplay, playbook, piece of music, dance piece etc.). I have shown excerpts from the book at different international events mostly in the form of performative lectures and/or close readings, in which I actively involve the audience. At the SAR conference I intend to present a compilation of photographic and textual fragments of my work that allow for a critical discussion of violence as a research topic.